But I still feel hopeless. I gain a step, but lose two. Trying to go forward and only ending up worse off than before.
I make progress, then I'm pulled down back to where I was.
I haven't read the Bible in about a month. I still want to grow and learn and be with Him. I want the hope that comes with it. I want the faith to believe it's not the end. I'm not entirely sure what's keeping me down here. What do I have to do in order to receive faith? What's the secret recipe that I've missed? How can I do the same things that help others, the stuff that I think I'm supposed to do, and end up with nothing to show for it? What's my problem?
